Friday 15 February 2013

291: Fatal Attraction

I know I shouldn’t do it but I can’t help it.  I’m not in control, that must be it.  A force outside my body is making me do it.  Something or someone else is controlling me.  Something or someone else is making pick up the screwdriver.  I don’t want to hold it.  I want to put it down but I can’t.  I know it will hurt her and I know I’m still going to do it anyway.  Nothing will be the same again.  Nothing and she will never forgive me.  I want her to not see me do it.  Please look away, please.  I wish she would stop me.  I wish she could stop me.  I’m going to stick the screwdriver in now.  The socket is too tempting and I have to stick it in there.  Because I don’t want to live with the hurt it will cause her.

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