Keith’s enduring memory of the decade of love wasn’t the glossy
flowing hair intertwined with buds and blooms on boys and girls alike, it wasn’t
the parties that went on all weekend with free beer and freer sex, it wasn’t
the music of the Beatles and the Stones who spoke for his generation. It wasn’t even the acres of pale thigh Karen
Marmaduke showed in her plastic mini-skirt, that Keith slid his hand along in
more than one cinema back row.
It was the images of fallen US troops returning from Vietnam in
flag-draped coffins. The coffins of
young men maybe no older than himself.
He imagined inside clean, peaceful young faces suitable for kissing by a
distraught mother and tight-jawed father.
It was better than imagining the more realistic bodies with ragged raw
holes in, limbs missing, brains spilling out across the wooden insides.
No generation before had been able to question war or the government
or how people were treated. People like
Keith discovered a passion in the 60s, a passion for human rights and sticking
it to ‘the man’. They marched and made
banners late into the night, passing round special cakes and swapping stories
of how great the world would be when they, the young people of the 60s, made it
all alright.
Keith looked at his image in the mirror. He took in hand-stitched Italian leather
shoes, bespoke navy pinstripe suit with five buttons at each wrist, a
monogrammed fine cotton handkerchief in his breast-pocket, the £12,000 vintage
Bubbleback Oyster watch made the year Keith was born and a treat to himself
when he became CEO. There was no trace
of the former glossiness to the neat gunmetal hair. No cakes, special or otherwise, passed those
lips in case they meant another 30 minutes workout in the corporate gym.
Keith looked at his image in the mirror and he saw ‘the man’ looking
back. Passion for fair treatment and
equal rights had been long-since replaced by a passion for streamlined
corporate management and pursuit of profit above all else. Free love came by the way of expensive
escorts on the company tab in anonymous hotel rooms across the globe, Keith’s
wife unaware at home in Kent and missing him as always.
He wondered if it was too late to change, if he even could
change. His 20 year-old self would be
ashamed at what he had let himself become.
Keith straightened his cuffs, removed a speck of lint from his lapel and
returned to the fundraiser, pushing down the feeling of self-loathing rising in
his throat. His body edged towards a coffin which his soul had already found,
one that would deserve no draping flag or any other display of honour.
Some people probably find it easier than others to accept that they have become what they despised in their youth.
ReplyDeleteA hard-hitting piece, that gives food for thought.